Last night you broke my heart. You tore every piece of me apart and threw it to the curb like a sack of trash, as if the last 13 months meant nothing to you. It's true what they say about love, when its amazing, its fucking amazing and when its bad, you feel like you are standing on the edge of a precipice just waiting for the slightest breeze to knock you off and send you tumbling down into the abyss. You will never see these eyes the same way, you will never feel the gut wrenching pain that stabbed at me as I took each step out of your house to my car last night.
The world lies to us when they say to get up and move on. They lie when they say that heartbreak will help you and guide you. The people who are beside you telling you that you are better off... they lie too. Because if they knew what I knew then they wouldn't have words to even try and fathom the daggers you've lodged in me. God knows I am trying to let you have your space, to let you be, so that you can have whats best for you, because as someone who actually loves you and knows the true definition of that word, I am willing to sacrifice my happiness and endure any pain for you.
My worst fear is not seeing you tomorrow or the next week, my worst fear is not seeing you ever again. My worst fear is waking up to the news that you didn't think your life was worth it. As someone who has lived that life with you, it is worth it. You are always worth it.
You are right about one thing, we had our struggles. We both lied, we both hurt each other, and we fought a lot. But you say it like it was the majority of our memories, but that's only because you refuse to let the bad ones fall away and focus on the good.
Remember the time that I ate an entire pizza and then half of yours? Remember when I would stop by and have lunch with you at work? Remember the time we drove for hours and sang to every tune we turned on? Well, you might not remember but I do.
I remember the time I first said I love you. I remember our first argument, I remember you coming clean to me, and I remember every word from last night.
That's the last thing I will remember about you. You mean the world to me, but I have to let you go, because you don't want this anymore. Time is a precious thing, please don't waste it thinking of me, instead use your time to go do what you are passionate about. I know you are gonna make it big, and I know you have the potential to climb as high as you want. So don't let me or our memories hold you back, because I love you, and all I want is for you to be happy and healthy.
