When I think I have cried my very last tear, another river pours from these swollen eyes. I've always been aware that we all die, and that one day our dearest loved ones die as well. But no one is ever prepared for it to happen, and the worst part is when you know it might happen but you can't do anything but wait in grief. She doesn't know that i am already grieving, because she doesn't know that I have a full understanding of how bad things are. Some times its really just not fair. There isn't anything any of us can do. I feel completely useless, so I try to stay strong and spend the most time I can with her. She doesn't realize how important she is to me. I love her so much, and I would gladly replace all her pain and i would take this tumor for her if i could. I don't want to lose her, I can't lose her. she is everything to me. She knows all the right things to say, she picks me up when i am not strong enough and she made me be the woman i am today. I just want to help pick her up and be strong for her, but I am falling to pieces here. I keep it all in all day long and then it just won't stop overflowing all night long. I love her more than anything in this world. my family means so much to me no matter how messed up it is.
I can't let you go like this, not like this. You are a hero, big sis. You are the twinkle to my shining star in the sky. I just want to hug you forever.
I won't let anyone hurt you again if it means i could have all the time I want with you. I want forever with you! You wiped my tears, sweat and blood from every tortuous day and you inspired me to be the best I could be.
Forever and always, sis
- Love Your Lil' Sis
